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hospital soup = FAIL

I guess you can tell what is on my mind...

Blood work today. Ick. No me gusta needles. Can't eat till its done either. But before all that, I have an appointment with a nutritionist, the kind that tells you that 1/2 a cup of mashed potatoes IS a full serving. Good thing my new medication makes me less hungry.

I'm not sure if I have mentioned it here before but i have been retaining a lot of water in my feet and lower legs as well as sometimes in my hands. I have also been having occasional chest pain and wheezing. Well, I went to see the doctor and now he is testing my kidneys, liver, thyroid, lungs, insulin levels and most importantlly, my heart. It's possible that i could have congestive heart failure. I'm pretty sure that i don't need to tell you that I'm scared, especially since my mom died of cancer and the thought of hosiptals and or dying makes me want to puke from fear. The kidney and liver tests came back fine but everything else is TBA. I will try and keep you posted.

Once again, I have left this journal by the wayside. The apology routine is getting old but I still feel like I owe it to the one or two people who actually read this thing. too much to recap at this point. Just wanted to let people know that I'm not dead... yet. but more on that later. So just consider this a hi and hello. *waves*

I have been heartbroken from long distance relationships quite a few times. I think long distance relationships can and do work, but not for everyone. If you are one of the people with trust issues who is always afraid of your partner cheating, you will probably have a hard time making a normal relationship working let alone a long distance one. Long distance relationships take extra patience, trust, honesty, dedication, and if you want to see your partner anytime soon: a fair bit of cash flow. Also, if the relationship comes from two people who have met on the internet, I would say it is important for both people to know that knowing someone in person is much different from only talking on the phone/im/e-mail/webcam. So much of human communication is body language and those in a long distance relationships normally don't get to witness that often (short visit or webcam) if they see each other at all. Plus, not to be a pessimist but, not being able to be around your partner whenever you want makes it a lot easier for both of you to hide the flaws that you don't want the other to see. (no one is 100% open) As much as I would love to think that meeting someone you have known awhile on the internet won't change much in the relationship, the fact is it could change everything. It's almost like meeting a stranger, a stranger of whom you know lots of personal information. Does this mean that I am against meeting people on the internet? Not at all.
In fact, this Sunday a friend/boyfriend of mine who I have been talking to for 5 years is coming to visit me all the way from California for 10 days. (I live in Wisconsin.) Personally, I am surprised that I am not a nervous mess right now. There is still a part of me that wonders, “What if he doesn’t like me?” But for the most part, I am excited. We have a few plans already made (going to the Milwaukee Art Museum, a picnic in the park, fireworks for the 4th by the lake, cooking lunch together and watching a movie, (Across the Universe or RENT ) and a tour of the city by public bus) but otherwise we are just going to wing it. He is bringing his camera and said he will let me borrow it so hopefully I will get some good shots.
Hope this helped.

The only thing that I found worthwhile in the entire article:

"This whole discussion is just a 21st century version of what women and assault victims have been hearing for years. The logic that it falls on the victim to prevent irrational actions of the assailant is really outdated and really, really dangerous. Many victims of violence—and especially domestic violence—will tell you that the slaps, punches, and shoves perpetrated upon them didn't happen when they were just sitting their minding their own business. It came during some sort of disagreement. Maybe she snapped at him out of frustration. Maybe she hit on a particularly sore subject. These are all things that happen during the course of an argument—we're never at our best when tempers are inflamed. But that doesn't make it right, ever, to take the fight from cutting remarks to physical violence.

We all should try to be better people: less annoying or abrasive, less prone to reaching for the cheap (verbal) shot, more sensitive to those around us. But it's not our responsibility to ensure that the person we're arguing with doesn't cross the line from nasty name calling to physical violence. This tired line of thinking keeps women with abusers (because if she just avoided certain subjects...), makes it ok to beat up gay men who have the temerity to walk down a crowded street in the wrong side of town (because really, what did he expect?) and subtly endorses sociopaths who think it's their life's work to beat some sense into people who don't fit a cultural norm. It's Rhianna, it's Matthew Sheppard, it's Angie Zapata. It's wrong.

This is something we all know. Most of us claim to be all about non-violence and peaceful solutions and treating each other with kindness. The actual practice of supporting the victim, however, is a lot harder when the victim is kind of a douche. That, however, is when it's most important: you can't demand that people earn basic human rights with kindness points."

To read the rest of the article, go to: blog.newsweek.com/blogs/thehumancondition/archive/2009/06/23/john-mayer-perez-hilton-and-the-politics-of-victim-blaming.aspx

I thought I did.

I am almost 100% relieved.

Bisexuality immediately doubles your chances for a date on Saturday night. ~Woody Allen

zero times two is still zero...

Maybe time travel is possible, for even though time keeps moving forward the only direction I seem to move is backward.

depressing = seeing pictures of people who used to be your friends doing things you have only done in your best fantasies

How am I supposed to care about your life when you are trying so hard to die?

long time no see, but no one has changed

opinions are subjective, so grab a dictionary

How could you sit there and lie to me
As if I know nothing
Just because I have never run in the same circles as you
doesn't mean I haven't felt the wind in my hair
If you don't want me to care about you
don't talk to me anymore
let me try and rinse you away
before you start to sting my eyes
and my heart
Pull away before I swim too far
And can't back to shore

Completely random and pointless but...

Poll #1416710 Biscuits!
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 2

What do you put on your biscuits? ((Feel free to check more than one))

Title: Speak Up (part 1/?)
Author: geneviverusset, duh
Rating: For this section: PG/K+ (could be G/K but I think people younger than 9 would have trouble understanding, whatever)
Genre: Drama
Word Count: 203
Warnings: Major URC (unresolved conflict)
Author's Notes: Chances are that i am only going to write a few sections (2 or 3) and then I will get bored and not finish it. I will try and wrap it up as best as possible but don't expect anything lengthy. If for some reason I do keep going, the rating will go up to about a PG-13/T and will probably include a bit of slash. (hence the slash/rating disclaimer) Just to let you know.
Disclaimers: The characters, events, and organizations portrayed in this narrative are fictitious. Any resemblance to actual events or individuals is purely coincidental.
All characters and plot are purely of my own imagination and design. Do not steal/modify. If you ask nicely, I may let you play with them. (As long as I get to watch)

This work of fiction contains content involving male homosexuality which may or may not include sexual relations between 2 or more men. If this offends you or isn’t really your cup of tea, feel free to leave. Flaming will not be tolerated.

Please check the rating on this piece. If a rating of this nature offends you and/or it is illegal for you to view objectionable content in your area, please find something else to read.

 

( Speak Up - Part 1 )